Deal Memo: Connection with Him

Asset Details

  • Asset: Connection with Him
  • Entry Date: May 2025
  • Holding Period: ~2.5 months
  • Total Interaction Time: < 15 hours
  • Capital Outlay: $0 financial cost, high emotional capital
  • Initial Intent: Curiosity, openness, mutual encouragement

Gains

  1. Motivation Engine
    Harnessed relationship energy as fuel for fitness, self-improvement, creativity, and emotional capital investing.

  2. Emotional Alchemy
    Converted sadness into love within days, proving emotional energy is transformable and under control.

  3. Identity Expansion
    Broke parts of “habit of being yourself” that depended on others for validation.

  4. Energy Awareness
    Recognized magnetic presence and began aligning with higher frequencies.

  5. Emotional Sovereignty Training
    Learned detachment without shutting down love; kept heart open with boundaries intact.

  6. Creative Boost
    Increased writing output, deep reflection, and self-worth insights.

  7. Self-Generated Warmth
    Developed sustainable ability to feel love without external input.

  8. Fitness Motivation
    Set tangible target: squat 92kg within 2 years — physical strength mirrors emotional strength.

  9. Letting Go Practice
    Began no-contact trial to systematically reduce emotional reliance.

  10. Role Model Effect
    Used another person as a mirror to accelerate growth and self-awareness.

Risk Management Actions

  • Limited Exposure: Short holding period, low total time invested.
  • No Over-Allocation: Majority of emotional capital remained self-focused.
  • Strategic Exit: No-contact plan to preserve gains and reduce volatility.

Ongoing Dividends

  • Warmth in memory, reframeable at will.
  • Creative ideas sparked from small interactions.
  • Strengthened discernment in emotional investments.
  • Lifelong skill of self-fueling emotional states.

Conclusion

One of the highest-return, lowest-risk trades of my life.
It cost almost nothing in time or resources but delivered tools, confidence, and energy that will compound for decades.
The position is now closed for active trading — but the dividends are permanent.

Mistakes to Avoid in Future

  • Emotional leverage was very high — like putting a small amount into a high-volatility stock.
  • Dollar/time input was small, but leverage amplified emotional portfolio swings.
  • The rapid cycle (sadness → love → longing → independence) was intense but became accelerated training in emotional risk management.

Allocation Rules for Future

  • 80% — Self (health, purpose, creativity, spiritual growth, friendships, investing)
  • 15–20% — Romantic relationship (shared time, emotional presence)
  • 0–5% — Unexpected spikes (situational emotions)

Ending

In less than three months, I experienced a sense of love and a surge of energy, creativity, and self-knowledge that might have taken years to develop otherwise. Now, the chapter closes not with regret, but with gratitude. Like a rare market event that leaves a lasting mark on an investor’s skill, this connection shaped me — and now it belongs to my history, not my future. The dividends remain, and I walk forward lighter, stronger, and more focused on my core asset — myself.