Secret Behind 50% YTD — Closing Energy Leaks Changed Everything
For years, my biggest energy leaks were not in my habits or routines.
They were in my marriage — and in my relationship with my mom.
In my marriage, I kept losing energy.
There was tension we didn’t talk about.
Needs that were not met.
I was holding together something that drained me more than it gave me.
With my mom, it was her constant criticism.
Her comparisons.
Her undermining.
Even when she thought she was helping, I always walked away feeling smaller, weaker, less myself.
At the time, I didn’t see it clearly.
I thought the answer was to push harder.
To be more positive.
To use more willpower.
To try another productivity hack.
I even told the Italian man I met at the gym:
“I don’t want to complain. I want to stay positive.”
But he looked at me and said:
“This is not complaining. This is facing truth.”
That changed everything.
Because I realized — if I don’t face my pain, then no matter how positive I try to be, it’s useless.
Denying my pain was the real drain.
Truth is not negative.
Truth is what closes the leak.
The Shift
In May, I stopped pouring energy into my marriage.
I haven’t divorced — because of the kids.
But I stopped the leak by seeing my husband as the father of my children, not as my partner.
And in early July, I chose to go no contact with my mom, temporarily.
Both decisions were hard.
But they freed me.
And I know: one day, if I am strong enough, I will contact my mom again.
Almost overnight, everything else began to rise.
- Portfolio: My investing returns soared — over 50% YTD. Not because I chased risk, but because I finally had the clarity and patience to stay conservative.
- Body & Face: My body changed. Even my face changed. People told me I looked younger, lighter, more alive.
- Routines: I started waking at 4 a.m. Walking 15,000 steps. Training. Writing. Discipline stopped feeling like a fight. It became natural.
- Creations: I launched my YouTube channel. I made 3+ videos every week. I wrote over 20 posts in a month. I am flooded with ideas. Creation became a joy, not a burden.
The more energy I reclaimed, the more every part of my life multiplied.
The Energy Economy in Action
I used to think money was the key.
If I just had more money, life would be easier.
And the truth is — I could have become wealthy if I stayed in my marriage.
But my marriage was suffocating me.
What is the point of money if you can’t even breathe?
Then I thought time management was the secret.
If I just used my calendar better, if I just managed every hour.
But the truth is — it often took me a whole week to recover from the negativity after just one conversation with my mom.
What is the point of time if your energy is gone?
Now I know the truth:
Energy is the real economy.
Because when I closed my leaks, all that lost energy came back to me.
And the moment I had more energy — I started creating.
That’s why I could wake up at 4 a.m. and feel alive.
That’s why I could walk 15,000 steps, train, and still sit down to write.
That’s why I could launch my channel, record videos, and write more than 20 posts in a single month.
Closing leaks gave me energy.
Energy gave me creation.
Creation gave me joy.
And joy gave me even more energy.
That is how the Energy Economy works.
It is a loop. Once you stop leaking, you start multiplying.
Closing Thought
For so many years, I thought I needed more hours in the day.
Or I thought I needed more money in the bank.
But that was not the truth.
What I really needed… was to stop leaking my energy.
Once I faced my truth — once I closed those leaks —
my portfolio grew, my body transformed, my face looked alive again, my routines became effortless, and I was flooded with ideas.
I didn’t get all of that by chasing more.
I gained it by closing what drained me.
And once I did… everything soared.