00:30 Determination to Change 01:24 Month 1: Cut the Noise. Build Strength. 02:24 Month 2: Face Shame, Unlock Confidence. 03:42 Month 3: Wake Early. Gain Vision. 04:58 Month 4:Quit Sugar. Master Focus. 06:11 Month 5: Morning Walks: Listening to My Inner Voice 07:33 Month 6: Facing Truth — Cutting Draining Relationships 08:36 Month 7: Began Writing Daily — Found Clarity 09:46 Month 8 — Opened My Heart, Powered by Love 11:00 Month 9: Started making YouTube videos- live in truth,love,service 12:05 Closing Message

titel: How to i changed myself completely in 9 months at age of 40

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“You can change your entire life in just nine months — at any age. I did it at 40. And I promise, you can too if you’re determined.

Last year, I spent 6 hours a day scrolling, trapped in anxiety, overthinking, and feeling no hope. My life was on repeat.

I made one promise to myself: I would change On the first day of next year.

Nine months later… everything is different.

In this video, I’m going to show you exactly how I did it — month by month — and how you can do it too.”

Determination to Change

“As a stay-at-home mom, I felt invisible. Unfulfilled. Lonely. Stuck. Like my life was already over.

Instead of facing my own emptiness, I poured all my energy into politics. I even took my kids to gatherings, hoping that some politian would make the change come ture.

For years, I kept believing someone else would change my life — first my husband, then a politician, then another man.

But when politics betrayed me, it woke me up.

If I wanted change, it had to be me.

And for the first time, I stopped looking outward for hope and turned inward. That’s when I began building new habits, one by one…”

Month 1: Cut the Noise. Build Strength.

The news made me miserable.

Every night, my hand moved on its own — unlocking my phone, scrolling through political talk after talk, until midnight.

I knew it was poisoning me. But I couldn’t stop.

On the first day of 2025, I gave myself one rule: Cut it all off. Forever. No news. No social media. No politics talks on YouTube.

The silence felt strange at first — like withdrawal.

But I filled it with something new: strength training. I bought 72 sessions, and promised myself I’d show up every day.

At first, I trained on the machines. Slowly, I moved to free weights. And with every rep… I felt myself rebuilding.

Strength training didn’t just change my body. It rebuilt my confidence. My resilience.

Those 72 lessons became the best investment of my life. Because they gave me the courage… to face my deepest shame in month two.”

Month 2: Facing Shame, Unlocking Confidence

“English had always been my deepest shame. I could pass exams with high scores… but I couldn’t say a single word with confidence.

But I was determined to change. I signed up for Native Camp, and forced myself to face my fear. Three hours a day, I opened my mouth and spoke.

To my surprise — it wasn’t painful. It was healing.

My teachers gave me compliments I had never heard in my entire life. My mom criticized me every time I called her. Even my husband criticized me when I asked for a birthday compliment. But here — in that small online classroom — I was seen differently.

One teacher told me: ‘I can’t believe you don’t have confidence. You look perfect. The meaning of our class is to help you realize how good you are.’

Another gave me a name: Everyday Diva. That name planted a seed — a new identity, waiting to grow.

He even saw my potential when I told him I was born at midnight, between Cancer and Leo. He said: ‘You should do YouTube. It will pay off.’

I never imagined that facing my shame would unlock my confidence.

My teachers gave me something my own family never did: belief in myself.

And with that confidence… I changed faster in the months ahead.

(On screen: “Facing shame unlocked my confidence.”)

Month 3: Wake Early. Gain Vision.

“With confidence, I built two habits in March: waking up five minutes earlier… and reading.

One day in February, I told my teacher, ‘I want to be a morning person — but I’ve failed for years.’ He just said, ‘Then wake up five minutes earlier tomorrow.’

So I did. Alarm at 6:45. No snooze. By March, I was rising before six. For the first time in years… I had time for myself.

Another teacher told me to start reading. I bought the book immediately — The Celestine Prophecy and Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself.

I wasn’t spiritual, but those books opened a door. One taught me to notice energy. The other showed me how to rebuild myself.

It’s hard to believe such small changes could ripple into my whole life.

Five minutes grew into three hours of focus — walking, meditating, writing.

Reading gave me vision. It helped me shed the old housewife and step into a new identity: Everyday Diva. Even my outfits shifted — from Gap to Lululemon.

Looking back… confidence gave me courage. Discipline gave me structure. Reading gave me direction. Together… they laid the foundation for my awakening.”

Month 4:Quit Sugar. Master Focus.

“In April, I decided to quit refined sugar. At first, it was just about diet. I wanted my strength training to show results — and cutting sugar helped me drop my body fat to 20%.

But three months later, on my birthday… I ate two pieces of cake.

The very next day, I felt it. I used to get up before 5, but I couldn’t get up until eight. My body felt heavy, my mind — foggy. I tried to read, but the words slipped away.

I went to the kitchen, searching for something to fill the emptiness. Snacks. One after another.

My discipline. My motivation. My willpower. Even my focus — gone. The cravings were back.

That’s when I realized… saying no to sugar was about more than body fat. It was training me to say no to distractions, to cravings, to comfort-seeking.

What seemed like a small dietary choice became a powerful lesson in focus and self-mastery.

And there was an unexpected gift. Quitting sugar sharpened my sensitivity, my awareness.

I became more attuned to subtle energy dynamics — a skill that would change everything in the months ahead.”

Month 5 — Morning Walks: Listening to My Inner Voice

“With my heightened sensitivity, I began to notice the strong, uplifting energy after sunrise.

The Celestine Prophecy taught me: ‘The more you appreciate something, the more energy you will get from it.’

So I started to appreciate everything — the trees, the flowers, the wind, the sky, my body, the quiet of the morning.

And that appreciation gave me enormous energy to finally face my negative emotions.

One day, I took off my AirPods and simply walked. Without music, without distraction — I was truly with myself.

All the emotions I had numbed for years came rushing back.

But to my surprise, with the high energy of the morning, my perspective shifted. I began to see that every failure, every mistake, every betrayal and hurt was, in truth, a lesson in disguise.

After three months of morning walks, I felt cleansed — my body lighter.I smiled more. My old friend — the cringe moments — never visited me again. I felt cleansed. my body felt more light. i smiled more. my old friedn: the crige moments, never visited me again. I fell in love with nature. And I fell in love with myself.

And facing myself in the stillness of the morning led me to discover the biggest truth of my life… my marriage.”

Month 6: Facing Truth — Cutting Draining Relationships

“By this time, I had changed so much. Other moms told me my transformation gave them pressure. My son’s teacher even joked, ‘You look 14.’ when i told him i am 40 I smiled on the outside.

But at home, it was different. When my husband asked what I wanted for my birthday, I said honestly: ‘I just want you to learn to compliment me.’

Instead of kindness, he criticized me. Then he ignored me… for two days.

In that silence, I realized: I longed to be seen, but he refused to see me.

“From the outside, our marriage looked perfect. Inside, I was deeply alone.

Asking for a divorce meant starting over from zero. At first, I thought it meant losing everything.

But what I really lost… was the greatest energy leak of my life.

And from zero, I released the greatest hidden power of my own.

Month 7: Began Writing Daily — Found Clarity

“Since January, I had seen him at the gym — just the two of us around 6:30. For months, he asked me for coffee. At the end of May, I finally said yes… because he was planning to leave soon.

During that coffee, he looked at me and asked: ‘Are you happy?’ I smiled and said: ‘What do you think?’

He paused, then said: ‘You’re positive… you should shine like sunshine. But something is dragging you down.’

For the first time, I felt truly seen — just fifteen hours after my husband had rejected my request. And it unlocked emotions I had buried for years.

Not long after, I found a ballpoint pen in the bathroom at my son’s music class. It felt like a sign. So I picked it up… and began to write.

I poured every emotion onto the page. To my surprise, writing healed me. The more I wrote, the more clarity I gained.

Daily writing became my lifeline. It released my emotions, guided them into growth, and slowly… rewired my mind.

That was the moment I began to awaken.”

Month 8 — Opened My Heart, Powered by Love

“For years, I avoided talking with other men… because I was married.

But finally, I broke free from the cage I built for myself.

At Starbucks, during our second coffee, we sat side by side. He simply gazed at me. He didn’t speak. He only smiled.

In that silence, something shifted. No words were needed. I saw love in his eyes… and, for the first time, I allowed myself to feel it.

After our third coffee, before he left, I gave him a book: Total Freedom. He encouraged me: ‘You already have everything you need to change.’

I missed him — I missed the moment I was truly seen. But I channeled that missing into growth.

He was a mirror. Through him, I saw myself clearly. I had everything I needed all along. But I had always waited for others to save me… and in that waiting, I forgot my own power.

His leaving was greater than his love. Because it saved me from another mistake — the mistake of hoping to be rescued by another man.

Now I have clarity: I have the power to create my own freedom. And it is the only way.”

Month 9: Started making YouTube videos- live in truth,love,service

Love is now my default mode.

On my birthday, at 5:25 a.m., I saw a rainbow — just one minute after I whispered, ‘Creator, if you love me, show me a sign.’

Since then, I feel love every time I look at the sky.

He once told me: ‘Your smile shines like the sun.’

Having walked through darkness, I now want to be the sun — to bring warmth and light to those still searching.

Finally, I turned my private awakening into a public journey.

No masks. No hiding. No pretending.

The pen I picked up in that bathroom was more than ink. It was a call — to write my truth.

The mirror he once held before me showed me who I really was. And now, I hold that mirror for others.

Through my words, through my videos, through my story… my transformation became my message.

To show others: it is possible to transform at any age.”

Closing Message

“I wasted so much time waiting… waiting for others to save me.

But no one else can save you. Only you can.

If I can transform my life in nine months — from shame, distraction, and loneliness… to confidence, clarity, and love — then you can too.

Don’t waste your life. Start now. Even one small step today can begin the butterfly effect.

(soft smile) At 40, I was reborn. you can be too.