I spent the first 40 years of my life as a daughter, worker, and caregiver — trading my time, energy, and identity for survival, duties, expectations, and roles. I lived inside a life that wasn’t mine.
At 40, for the first time, I saw my true self clearly.
My awakening didn’t give me a new purpose — it removed everything that wasn’t mine.
And when all the false layers fell away, I finally saw my own purpose for being alive.
In this video, I will share the life purpose I discovered at 40 — the purpose that will guide the next forty years of my life.
- Multi-Skill: A Life Built by Many Abilities
For many years, I lived as what my mother called a caretaker — a supporter, someone who traded her time, youth, and energy to hold up other people’s lives.
I took care of my children. I took care of the household. I took care of my husband. And I was expected to take care of my in-laws in the future.
Somewhere in this long chain of responsibility, I stopped taking care of myself.
It is both ironic and awakening to see it now: I lived as a caregiver because I believed that was my value, and that dependence was the only way to survive.
But after awakening, one truth became impossible to ignore:
I don’t want to be a caregiver anymore.
Not because caregiving is wrong, but because I want a life where I grow, create, build, and become someone with my own skills, my own power, my own independence.
So now I’m developing abilities that allow me not only to survive — but to expand.
I’m practicing English every day; one day I may teach online.
I’m sharpening my investing skills — one of the greatest forms of time leverage and long-term freedom.
I train my body through strength training and flexibility; if I ever choose to, I could coach or guide others.
I’m strengthening my learning ability and emotional regulation, so I can adapt to any future path with confidence.
I even studied computer science; sometimes recruiters still email me for interviews.
And every single day, I read, I write, and I create videos to expand my mind, my voice, and my creative identity.
I used to think I needed one specialty. But that was the old world.
**I am not a specialist.
I am a multi-skill human — designed for range, depth, and adaptability.**
Awakening didn’t give me one skill. It gave me permission to develop all of them.
- Multi-Dimensional: A Whole Life, Not a Narrow One
For a long time, I believed that financial freedom was the only path to a better life. But after awakening, everything became clear:
**I don’t want a life that is only financially free.
I want a life that is internally free — in every dimension.**
Money is just one layer of my expansion, not the center of my purpose.
I don’t live inside one identity anymore. I live across dimensions.
My life is no longer flat. It expands across layers:
Physical → I walk 11,000 steps daily, strength train four times a week, and stretch for 20 minutes a day. These practices give me energy, confidence, and a strong presence.
Mental → I read, write, and make videos. These habits sharpen my thinking and build the architecture of my mind.
Emotional → My 4 AM routine, morning walks, writing, and recording help me heal, regulate, and reclaim emotional sovereignty.
Spiritual → I practice self-awareness, identity rewiring, and trusting life moment by moment.
Creative → Through writing and YouTube, I express my truth and document my becoming.
Financial → I invest with long-term thinking and patience, not fear or greed.
Cultural → I open my worldview through language, conversation, and the perspectives of people from different cultures.
I don’t live inside one identity anymore. I live across dimensions.
Awakening made my life multi-dimensional — vibrant, integrated, alive.
- Multi-Discipline: The Latticework of My Mind
The best way to make money in the modern world is not through labor or luck.
It is through your cognitive ability — your mind.
And the fastest way to grow cognitive power is through multi-discipline learning.
I used to study accounting, valuation, and economics because I wanted to become a better investor. But I failed. I was seeing the world through only one narrow lens.
So I turned to Charlie Munger’s philosophy of worldly wisdom — to collect mental models from many fields and let them interact inside my mind, so my decisions would be wiser than someone who depends on only one discipline.
I expanded into computer science and emotional regulation. And unexpectedly, I did become a better investor — not because I memorized more formulas, but because my thinking became broader, deeper, and more flexible.
Now my curiosity includes philosophy, psychology, investing, neuroscience, physics, emotional mastery, fitness, language, and creation — and each discipline becomes a mental model inside me.
Together, they form my latticework of thinking. And the more I practice this way of learning, the more joy I feel from thinking itself.
I’m no longer studying to “become a better investor.”
I study because I enjoy the mind I’m becoming.
- Multi-Language: Expanding the Edges of My Mind
Language is not just a tool.
Language is the world.
Wittgenstein said:
“The limits of my language mean the limits of my world.”
I didn’t understand this until my own awakening. Language shapes people — but it also confines people.
For most of my life, I was confined by my language.
Speaking Chinese shaped me into someone:
conservative
self-sacrificing
quiet
depressed
always maintaining harmony
unable to name my own needs
I thought this was “my personality.” But it wasn’t. It was the boundary of the world Chinese created in my mind.
Only after learning English did I understand how deeply language shapes identity.
English changed how I think because it finally gave me words for my experience, words for what I felt but couldn’t express, words for my truth.
Through English, I saw clearly:
My marriage had no connection, no affection, no attention.
These three words don’t exist in Chinese in the same emotional precision — so I couldn’t even name what was missing until I learned them.
Language expanded the borders of my world.
And then I felt called to learn Italian — as if my soul wanted to expand again into a new emotional landscape, a new rhythm of expression.
Because language is not vocabulary.
Language is identity.
It shapes how I:
understand myself
see the world
express truth
connect with others
think in new structures
Every new language gives me a new mind, a new emotional range, a new way of being.
This is why my awakening accelerated. My mind now lives in multiple linguistic worlds — each one expanding the edges of who I am.
And this is why I want to learn even more languages in the future.
Not for achievement. Not for performance. Not for “skills.”
But because each new language opens a new world inside me.
- Multi-Culture: A Global Inner World
I was born in one culture, but I no longer belong to only one.
I invest in the U.S. stock market. I read Western philosophy. I practice Eastern stillness and modern psychology. I have been influenced by meaningful connections with people from Italy, the U.S., and Canada.
These experiences quietly reshaped me.
I don’t think like a “local person” anymore. My mind is global, open, fluid.
**My culture now is a mixture of wisdom from everywhere.
I live in a world much larger than my geography.**
For years, I was physically rooted in one place because of my children — my life was centered around responsibility, caretaking, and proximity.
But in my 40s and beyond, I finally have the opportunity to explore more.
- The Identity Behind It All
I spent the first 40 years of my life becoming who others needed me to be. I will spend the next 40 years becoming who I was meant to be.
A multi-dimensional woman. A woman with range, clarity, depth, and freedom. A woman shaped by many skills, many disciplines, many languages, many cultures. A woman who expands her world by expanding herself.
This is the life I choose for the next forty years— not small, not narrow, not inherited.
**A life built from the inside out.
A life that keeps expanding. A life that finally belongs to me.**
This manifesto is for my future self— a guide to live day by day, year by year, in alignment with who I truly am. I am grateful to be awake now, and to finally begin living according to my own nature.
**“If the limits of my language are the limits of my world,
then this post is the beginning of a new world for me.”**
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