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Awakening at 40 — How Awakening Changed My Life For 40 years, I lived as who the world told me to be — a good kid, a good mother, a responsible wife, a quiet woman who kept peace. I didn’t know I was slowly abandoning myself. Awakening changed everything. When I awakened at 40, I didn’t expect the transformation to be this deep. Awakening didn’t just change how I think — it changed who I am, what I choose, how I look, how I create, how I carry myself, and the direction of my entire life. Here are the nine changes awakening brought into my life: 1. My Relationships Changed I stopped living from obligation and started living from truth. Awakening showed me clearly which relationships still aligned with who I was becoming — and which ones belonged to an older version of me. ...

The true waste of life… is self-abandonment. When I awakened at 40, I finally saw the truth of my past. I didn’t waste my life on mistakes or failures. I wasted it on something deeper— I wasn’t living as myself. For decades, I lived for others. I shaped myself around what they wanted. What they liked. What they expected. I adjusted myself constantly, because I thought that would make me a good person. Now I see it clearly: It was the biggest leak of my life. Marcus Aurelius wrote: “Do not waste the remainder of your life in thoughts about others.” The first time I read that line, it felt like he was speaking directly to me. ...

Start Most people don’t grow old. They get aged by years of self-betrayal. I was one of them… until six months ago. Today, I look 10 years younger than I did in my 30s. The secret wasn’t skincare, luck, or treatments. The secret was awakening. In this video, I will share why awakening is the first real anti-aging system. Before & After This was me in my 30s. I was a devoted mother — I did everything on my own. I hadn’t slept a full night in 6 years. I picked up my two kids at noon every day because I wanted to homeschool them. I was exhausted. And inside my marriage, I suppressed my emotions because I believed silence kept the peace. ...

title: Awakening at 40 — Part 1: Why Marriage Felt Heavy Why Marriage Became Heavy During My Awakening From the outside, my life looked complete— financial stability, two beautiful children, and the freedom to build my creative life. But inside, something felt quietly missing. My marriage had become still. No deep communication. No emotional resonance. No inner meeting of two souls. After awakening, I finally understood why the life I built no longer matched who I was becoming. Today, I want to share why my marriage began to feel heavy during my awakening, and what this experience taught me. 1. My Marriage Was Built Around My Old Identity When I got married, I was a very different woman: younger less aware less expressive more self-silencing more focused on harmony than truth more willing to fit myself into a role That version of me fit the marriage perfectly. ...

English Changed My Life: How Language Became My Rebirth This year, I took over 800 English speaking classes. At first, I thought I was simply learning how to speak better. I didn’t expect English to completely transform my identity and rewrite the direction of my life. Most people try to change their lives by forcing willpower, changing behaviors, or controlling their thoughts. But those are only the branches. The real root is identity. And learning English was the moment I touched my own roots for the very first time. In this video, I’m going to share how learning English reshaped my identity — and how that identity shift changed my entire life. The Three Identities We Live Through Before English, I lived inside an identity shaped by silence. Self-doubt, lack of encouragement, emotional suppression — all of it felt “normal,” because I had never known anything else. I thought that was simply life. ...

thumbnail: the silent killer start I had a perfect life… but inside, I felt like I was dying quietly. No money worries, a peaceful family, two wonderful kids, and plenty of time to exercise, read, and enjoy life. But inside, I felt like a failure. I pretended to be happy, but I was hollow. I used to think marriage was the reason I felt this way. Now I understand: it was never about anything external. Not money, not career, not marriage. It was something internal — something I had ignored for years. In this video, I’ll share what that silent killer was, and how I finally regained joy. The Root Cause Living a life I didn’t want, but pretending I did. Misalignment Between Work and Soul I love learning, but being a stay-at-home mom meant repetitive tasks. ...

start We all have that moment… when we look at ourselves and think, “I’m not good enough. I could do better.” I feel this every day too. But here’s the paradox: the belief “I’m not good enough” is actually the thing that holds you back. It drains your energy into self-doubt, perfectionism, procrastination, overthinking, and self-criticism. And the truth is: real long-term improvement comes from daily iteration — but the feeling “I’m not good enough” is the biggest obstacle to daily iteration. It stops you from showing up today. It stops you from growing tomorrow. ...

I Spent 1 Year Building the System That Keeps Me Motivated Thumbnail: “Motivated Forever ⚡” Ordinary motivation comes from emotion and dopamine. It rises when something feels exciting, then fades the moment it becomes hard or repetitive. That kind of motivation is not reliable. Real power comes from life-force energy — not adrenaline, but alignment. It’s not about feeling like doing it; it’s about being in the right energetic state where action becomes natural. This is not traditional motivation; this is sustained vitality. You don’t “get motivated” — you stay connected. In this video (and article), I share how I built the Energy System that keeps me motivated forever. ...

Start For years, I tried to control every outcome by doing more — holding twenty stocks, timing the market, keeping searching better stocks. I believed the harder I worked, the more I could make. But the result was a 50% loss. So from 2023, I surrendered. I stopped trying to control every move, didn’t check my account for a whole year, and shifted 99.9% of my energy to learning, training, and creating. By doing less — I gained more. In this video, I’ll share why less is more in investing — how surrendering control leads to better compounding, clearer judgment, and a calmer mind. Less Friction, More Compounding The rule of compounding: don’t break it. A 50% loss requires a 100% gain just to recover. In the past, I envied others with higher returns — but now I understand the hidden cost behind their numbers. ...

Title: how i live is how i invest. Thumbnail: my barbell strategyy How I Live Is How I Invest: The Barbell of Life Most people separate investing from life. But in reality, investing reflects our temperament, habits, and mindset. How I invest is how I live. How I live is how I invest. Both run on the same operating system — energy management, self-discipline, and emotional awareness. They constantly influence each other. Eight years of investing have shaped my mindset and temperament. And the way I live — my habits, personality, and awareness — shapes how I invest. In this video, I’ll share how I use value investing and the barbell strategy to achieve steady, meaningful growth — in the market, in personal development, in relationships, and in life itself. The Two Strategies The Buffett Side — Stability and Compounding The Buffett approach to value investing forms the stable, long-term core of my portfolio. It’s built on patience, understanding, and discipline. ...

Title: “How to Invest in Yourself” Buffett said: “The best investment you can make is in yourself.” Munger added: “Go to bed a little smarter every day.” The key is not doing — it’s everyday. The power lies in compounding. For years, I followed their words — reading more books, taking more courses, learning more skills, writing more posts. But I was distracted from time to time — for days, weeks, or even months. Then I realized: “All those things depend on the state of the person doing them.” If my energy is low, my mind cloudy, my spirit in chaos — even the best book can’t reach me. ...

Why Coding Taught Me the Secret of Long-Term Investing Why I Chose Computer Science In 2022, I spent almost all my time studying — reading dozens of investing books, learning valuation, accounting, and statistics. Yet despite all that effort, I lost 52%. That contrast shocked me. I realized I was optimizing for information, not intelligence. Charlie Munger once said that you need to build a latticework of mental models — a way of thinking that connects knowledge across disciplines. So I decided to study computer science, the subject of thinking itself. To my surprise, after I started learning it, my returns changed completely. Over the next three years, I averaged around 50% annual growth — not because I found better stocks, but because I learned to think differently. In this post, I’ll share why learning computer science helped me become a better investor — and how understanding systems, logic, and feedback loops improved not just my portfolio, but my mind. ...

It began the week I decided to let him go. I thought release would bring silence — an empty space where love once lived. But instead, something unexpected began to sing. The first voice came through a book — Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. As I read, I kept thinking about the potential influence Marcus might have on him. Yet what struck me most was how deeply I resonated with Marcus himself. Stoicism, I realized, was the philosophy I had already been living — quietly, instinctively, day by day. Each line whispered of stillness, self-mastery, and the kind of peace that asks for nothing in return. It was the calm after the storm — the wisdom of a heart that no longer fights its own truth. Then came Bella Ciao. My daught listened to it on Youtube. I didn’t understand the words at first, but I felt their fire. A melody of farewell, of freedom, of courage to walk away from what must end. It was the sound of the spirit saying, “Goodbye, Beautiful,” not in sadness—but in dignity. ...

🌞 My YouTube Clarity — October Reflection Two months ago, I pressed “upload” for the first time. I didn’t know how to edit well, how to speak naturally, or how the algorithm worked. All I knew was that I wanted to create — and I was willing to stay consistent. At that time, my goal was to prove myself — to prove that I could do it, to prove my worth through it. But what happened in the process changed me. 1. What I’ve Learned YouTube turned out to be the most honest mirror of my consciousness. Every video reflects my state of being — my focus, patience, confidence, and energy. I learned that: My inner state shows in my videos. I can feel my presence changing — I’ve become calmer. YouTube is a fast learning loop; every video is a real-life test: whether I can stay calm, detach from outcomes, and persist. The real question isn’t “Can I succeed?” but “Can I purify my intention — from wanting success to expressing truth?” Views, subscribers, and retention are not important. They don’t prove my worth — they’re just data for improving my creative system. The journey itself proves my value, because my daily commitment shows how much I value inner wealth. ...