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How I Handled Pressure in Real Time Today, during my speaking class, my teacher asked me two questions: What legacy do you want to leave behind? → I said I want to write a book about my Life Architect System. What is the difference between your productivity book and other self-help books? → I said it’s about female perspective, energy, and spirit. After class, I noticed how much pressure these questions created in me. It wasn’t the questions themselves, but my own mind leaping into the future, projecting fears, and worrying about outcomes. Instead of being swallowed, I decided to observe myself handling the pressure in real time. 1. Observation The first step is simply to notice. I said to myself: “This is press...

I went to the ecological park as usual, searching for the hawk for five days, but it was nowhere to be found. “Is it gone?” I wondered. Just a short while ago, I had seen it twice within three days—right as I was writing my Life Architect System. Now, it has disappeared completely. Was it a coincidence? When I was structuring my future plan, the hawk appeared. When I finished, it vanished. I knew it wasn’t random. The hawk showed up as synchronicity—right at the moment I was creating my Life Architect System. When my energy tuned to an “a...

Love Changed My Life 1. The Story — Recognition and Warmth We met in the gym, both of us training in the early mornings. For several months, I avoided him. My heart was locked inside marriage, not free to open. But he didn’t give up. He kept asking if we could have a coffee. When he told me he planned to leave and asked me to do him a small favor, I felt an unexpected freedom. In that freedom, I decided to see if there was a message for me. The night before we met, life shook me awake through conflict. And the very next morning, I was guided to a new connection. During our first meeting at Starbucks, I discovered something rare: he knew me even before I spoke. He recognized my soul, and...

Meta-Awareness: The Alchemy of Longing For two nights, I relied on natural sleeping pills, yet I still woke at 3 a.m. The last thought before waking was of him. My body remembered — the playful way he once poked my waist at the gym, the warmth of his eyes, the restraint in his gestures. I miss him. Even in the gym, as I trained, I imagined his smile from afar. In those moments, I felt he loved me — not in words, but in the silent language of presence. And strangely, I also felt that his withdrawal was a gift: an offering of space, so that I could grow into my own strength instead of leaning on him. And then I realized what was happening inside me: I was transforming longing into encouragement. I was watching myself transmute an emotion...

Why I Start YouTube (Post #4) This is my fourth time writing about why I started YouTube. Why so many versions? Because my clarity keeps evolving. As time passes, I see new layers, new reasons, new truth. 1. YouTube + Blog = My Public Learning Lab YouTube and my blog are not just platforms — they are my Public Learning Lab. In this lab, I turn life into experiments: Every post and video is where I test ideas, refine habits, and record insights. By publishing publicly, I create accountability. If I write it, I must live it. Each piece becomes a mirror of my growth, showing how much I’ve shifted over time. This lab is where theory meets practice. Where reflection turns into wisdom. Where my life proves that change is possible — and inevitable — when...

This is my living operating system — part blueprint, part diary, part guide. It evolves as I evolve. Aim: Wholeness → Wellbeing (Dimensions: Physical, Mental, Emotional, Spiritual, Energetic, Financial) Life OS Manifest(README file) This is the declaration of principles that guide my operating system — a manifesto of how I choose to live, grow, and create. I am the architect of my life — I design with clarity, sovereignty, and intention. I stand on truth, growth, and abundance, guided always by love, gratitude and clarity. My energy — physical, emotional, spiritual, financial — is sacred; I steward it with wisdom. Every day, I learn across fields, turn weakness into strength, and create with freedom. This is my living system — a blueprint of wholeness, a vessel of love, a path to overflow. Money is a byproduct of love, growth, and...

Every morning, I step outside for my walk. It’s more than exercise — it’s my daily practice of love. I love to look up at the sky and watch it change from second to second, enjoying the magnificent show and feeling it as the sky’s love for me. I walk along the roads where tree branches stretch overhead, and I raise my arm higher, as if trying to touch them. Sunlight filters through the leaves, scattering into a thousand stars. When I reach my favorite ecological park, I feel the gentle touch and embrace of the wind. Here, I remember the words once spoken to me in this very place — that I am charming and beautiful. I breathe in the aroma of my hometown flowers and smile at the...

Life OS — the system I’ve been building in past years without fully realizing it: Core Operating Principles (The mindset layer) These are the “non-negotiables” that guide every decision. Long-term thinking — I choose what compounds over decades. Fundamentals first — Whether in CS, investing, or relationships, I start with the root principles. Opportunity cost awareness — I say “no” to protect focus and capital. Emotional sovereignty — I don’t let external chaos dictate your inner state. Curiosity-led learning — I learn for the joy of understanding, not just for outcomes. Growth Engine (The learning + action loop) The way I transform curiosity into mastery. Identify core concepts — Example: CS61A/B, investing fundamentals, weight...

The 3 Mental Models That Cover 80% of Life’s Best Decisions Life is, at its core, about decision-making. Every day we make choices — big and small — and over time, the quality of those choices shapes the quality of our lives. Investing has been my unexpected masterclass in decision-making. The same thinking I use to decide Buy, Hold, or Sell? is the thinking I use to decide Say yes, say no, or wait? in life. The beauty of investing is that it demands constant decisions and gives immediate feedback in the form of gains or losses. Over time, it becomes a thinking gym — strengthening not just what you know, but how you think. From my years of investing, three mental models stand out as powerful enough to guide more than 90% of good...

Deal Memo: Connection with Him Asset Details Asset: Connection with Him Entry Date: May 2025 Holding Period: ~2.5 months Total Interaction Time: < 15 hours Capital Outlay: $0 financial cost, high emotional capital Initial Intent: Curiosity, openness, mutual encouragement Gains Motivation Engine Harnessed relationship energy as fuel for fitness, self-improvement, creativity, and emotional capital investing. Emotional Alchemy Converted sadness into love within days, proving emotional energy is transformable and under control. Identity Expansion Broke parts of “habit of being yourself” that depended on others for validation. Energy Awareness Recognized magnetic presence and began aligning with higher frequencies. Emotional Sovereignty Training Learned detachment without shutting down love; kept heart open with boundaries intact. Creative Boost Increased writing output, deep reflection, and self-worth insights. Self-Generated Warmth Developed sustainable ability...

We’ve all heard it: “Don’t rely on motivation — build a system.” For years, I thought “system” just meant having a few good habits. But to my surprise, I realized that many of my habits actually work together like an ecosystem — pushing me forward even on my “bad” days. Why This Works Most people try to “fix” their life in one giant leap. But real growth works like a farm — daily planting, watering, and harvesting. No single action transforms you overnight, but small, steady actions compound into huge results. Each of my habits might only add a fraction of a percent to my growth each day. But...

Productivity isn’t just about tools, hacks, or schedules. At its core, productivity depends on how you think, learn, decide, focus, and adapt — all meta-skills. to be productive, mastering meta-skills is essense. it is a form of first principles thinking, because you’re reasoning from the foundational truth instead of just following common advice. following are 10 immportant meta skills: Think How to Think Mental models, reasoning, pattern recognition, decision-making. Learn How to Learn Rapid skill acquisition, spaced repetition, feedback loops. Read How to Read Extracting principles, filtering noise, retaining and applying ideas. Decide How to Decide Clear criteria, opportunity cost, inversion, probabilistic thinking. Communicate How to Communicate Writing, speaking, storytelling — clarity in expression leads to clarity in thought. Observe How to Observe Mindfulness, emotional awareness, attention training — noticing what...

August 11, 2025 I woke up at 4:00 a.m. today. It reminded me of a time when I could rise at 4:30 — even 3:30 — simply because my connection with him filled me with energy. This morning, I felt that same spark. The moment I opened my eyes, it was as if I was watching the world through two pairs of eyes — mine and his. As I walked through the neighborhood we once shared, I saw him in every corner, and realized I was smiling. When I arrived at the gym and walked toward the VIP room, I saw the “movie” of us playing in front of every machine I passed. I don’t even need to close my eyes to recall these moments — they just appear. As...

10 Things I Quit after 40 Turning 40 wasn’t just a number — it was a portal. I didn’t just age — I evolved. Here are 10 things I let go of — to rise, reclaim my power, and live on my terms. Job Don’t rent your time — own things that grow without you. One year ago, I thought I would become a developer. This March, I considered being an online tutor. But now, I’ve quit the search for a “job.” I quit the idea of trading time for money. I no longer want to be hired — I want to build. Now, I create— Blogs that share my voice. Videos...

How I Changed My Life in 6 Months I Changed My Body Through Weight Training Changing the body is the first step to changing your life — because your body helps you grow strong, inside and out. 1. The Body is the Fastest Feedback Loop You can’t always see mental or emotional growth right away. But with the body, change is visible — and that visibility builds belief. I saw abs. My body fat dropped 2%. I could feel my muscles. I lifted more than my bodyweight. I did two pull-ups in a row. Every time I looked in the mirror, I realized: “I am strong. I am powerful. I am capable.” That visible proof created momentum. “If I can change my body — I...