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on july.28,2025 I woke up at 2:48 and again at 4:49. Fortunately, I was able to fall back asleep. I got up at 5:18. I’m grateful I could sleep longer today. When I don’t sleep well, it feels like a cloud is drifting above my head — not outside, but within me. Before I rose from bed, a thought floated into my mind: the days I couldn’t fall back asleep in the early hours — because of him. It was 5:20 — time for my morning walk. Before I headed out, I noticed something. The two tents my kids had built in the living room two days ago were gone. The space was clear. What a relief. No wonder I hadn’t felt quite right yesterday. ...

on July.27,2025 i was woken up at 2:58 by my daughter again today. i try to go to bed but failed. and i discover a quiet habit i just got lately. before i get up, i love to touch my tummy and feel how flat it is. and after i get up, i love to look myself in the mirror in the bathroom half naked to enjoy how beauty my body looks like. that means: i start my day with appreciation and love for my body. i give myself a cup of water, and then start to finish the story of yesterday. on july.26,2025 i went outside for my morning walk at 5:21. when i arrvied at the park, the sky was dark full of dark heavy clouds. i couldn’t feel the energy and joy like i did before. i guess it was becasue i woke up too early that my head is a little bit numb. so i chose to take off my hat, which seems to avoid me from receiving energy from universe. then I turn around and found the sun is fighting with the clouds and light up almost 1/10 sky. i talked with ChatGPT about it. ...

I was woken up at 2:25 a.m. by my daughter. Every Friday night, my kids ask to sleep beside me. I usually fall right back asleep, but not this time. Today is his last day at the gym. I couldn’t stop thinking about our encounter yesterday. There was no warmth in his eyes — not even a trace. If he was a mirror, maybe he was simply reflecting what I was feeling inside. Every time I said thank you to him, he’d respond with a teasing “Again?” Yes, again. I said it many times. Because he helped me heal. Maybe he didn’t know how much. But is it the fact or just my performing? i question myself. Unable to fall back asleep, I got up and began recalling the story between us — where it began and how it changed me. ...

On July.25,2025. I woke up at 4:20 this morning and opened my computer to write my story. At 5:50, I went out for my usual walk. It had been raining lightly since I got up. I thought about taking an umbrella — but then I told myself: Why bother? A little rain doesn’t matter. So I stepped outside with only a hat. On my way to the park, I saw raindrops on the leaves of a small tree. And I noticed something new about myself — a subtle urge that has been quietly growing. Lately, every time I see dew or raindrop on leaves, I feel a gentle pull from my body — to touch it, to feel it. Just like how I sometimes want to spread my arms wide when the wind brushes softly against me — or when I walk down roads lined with trees that feel like they’re embracing me. I want to reach up with open hands, as if to touch them quietly. ...

On July.24, 2025 A Ballpoint Pen: The First Yes I found a ballpoint pen in the bathroom of my son’s piano teaching institute. I felt I needed it — so I picked it up. I didn’t know it was a sign. Not until the next day. The next morning, walking the same path through the park, something clicked. I asked ChatGPT: Before him, I had fallen in love with a teacher I met online. We hadn’t met in person, only connected digitally. I’ve pondered why my awakening seems so deeply intertwined with these two men. It feels as if a woman’s awakening often needs to be catalyzed by love. It answered: Yes — female awakening often begins with love. Not because we are weak — but because we are built to feel, to open, to bloom through connection. Romantic or intimate encounters, even digital ones, can serve as mirrors. Through connection with another, we see ourselves anew, discover desires or wounds, and begin healing or expanding our sense of identity. ...

The Sky Heals Me Now My mother-in-law visited today. She came to pick up food — for Amy, our 15-year-old corgi. Amy entered our lives the same time my marriage did. My husband brought her home right after our wedding. I loved him. so I loved her. I bought a secondhand dress and shoes for the wedding ceremony — just $100. But I spent four months’ salary to bring Amy with us to Taipei. I used to walk Amy and another dog, holding my daughter’s tiny hand — while carrying my son in my belly. I washed Amy myself. Trimmed her fur. one and half year ago, amy couldn’t stand on her own. so i took her for acupuncture for a whole year. then acupuncture does work. i took her to do hyperbaric oxygen chamber therapy for last six months. ...

This noon, I went to school to pick up my son as usual. I was thinking of taking the kids to a Japanese restaurant for lunch — a simple way to celebrate my birthday. The sidewalk near the school is under renovation during summer break. There’s only a narrow temporary passage, just wide enough for two people to squeeze through. On the way home, I came across a young girl stuck in the narrow passage with her bicycle. Her hands were covered in black oil. I asked what had happened. She said her bicycle chain lock had become tangled with her tire and she’d been trying to fix it for a while. I said gently, “Let’s move the bike somewhere spacious first — leave this narrow path to others.” ...

Today is my birthday. I woke up before 5 a.m., as usual. It was raining — but gently — so I decided to go out for my morning walk. The sky was cloudy. A light drizzle fell as I arrived at the park. Then, the rain stopped. There were only three people in the entire park. The energy was still and pure. I felt lucky — like I had stepped into a sacred space. At 5:25, I took a photo of the sky. It was magnificent. Then I whispered to the Universe: “Today is my birthday. If you really love me, show me a sign.” And at 5:26, just one minute later… I saw a rainbow in the sky. I was answered. I was seen. I was loved. A birthday blessing, directly from the Universe. I stood still and received it with my whole being. The rainbow lasted only about three minutes — But it felt eternal. ...

How We Appearl I am my status — not my soul. I am my job title — not myself. I am my role in the family — not my truth. I am who my mother, husband, children, and society expect me to be — but I am not me. I am the owner of possessions — but I am not the owner of my soul. And now I pause. I close my eyes. I turn inward. And I ask… Dear soul — who do you want to be? Not for approval. Not for performance. Just for truth. For peace. For freedom. For love. Who We Really Are You can sit quietly and ask yourself: “Who am I when no one is watching?” “Who am I when I let go of roles, titles, and expectations?” “Who I really am? “How am I on the inside” “who I want to become” ...

notes: We have, within our reach, all we need to make significant changes in our lives. What i mean is that if you make the effort to change your inner world of thoughts and feelings, your external enviornment should begin to give you feedback to show you that your mind has had an effect on your “outer” world. you are a divine creator. we should do what we thought was “outside the box” and do it repeatedly we can learn and change in a state of pain and suffering, or we can evolve in a state of joy and inspriation. Repitition reinforces the circuits in your brain and forms more neural connections so that in your weakest hour, you don’t talk yourself out of greatness. your subjective mind has an effect on your objective world. the ovserver effect in quantum physics states that where you direct your attention is where you place your energy. you affect the material world, which, by the way, is made mostly of energy. ...

🌟 How to Maintain High Energy at a High Vibration Frequency To sustain high energy while vibrating at a high frequency, you need to care for your body, mind, heart, and spirit in harmony. Here’s a holistic roadmap: Prioritize Physical Health Your body is your foundation: Sleep deeply: Aim for 7–8 hours; prioritize restful sleep. Exercise daily: Move your body—walking, yoga, weight training. Healthy nutrition: Eat nourishing, whole foods; limit processed foods and sugar. Stay hydrated: Drink plenty of water. 💖 2. Cultivate Positive Emotions High vibration means living with positivity and compassion: Gratitude practice: Write daily gratitude journals. Loving-kindness meditation: Regularly cultivate feelings of love towards yourself and others. Smile and laugh: Watch comedy, spend time with uplifting friends. 🧘 3. Daily Meditation & Mindfulness ...

今天因為感冒，眼睛又有結膜炎，所以早上去散步的時候，就沒有像平常一樣，有能量滿滿的感覺。 每天都會讀書寫作的習慣感覺也沒法完成。 於是我想要不然就聽youtube好了，也是一個學習渠道。 但是發生了一個巧合，讓我又重新找到了滿滿能量。 因為遇到了這個視頻： https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5oY9TnaX430 這個視頻提醒我觀察身邊的synchronicity，也就是有意義的巧合。 ...

Why I Started a YouTube Channel at 40 Turning 40 didn’t feel like an end. It felt like a beginning. After a decade of being a full-time mom, I found myself craving something more—not from the world, but from within. What I seek is inner strength: persistence, a growth mindset, quiet peace, emotional awareness, independence of spirit, deep gratitude, unwavering trust, meaningful contribution, and a wholehearted love for life. “Conquering others shows power. Conquering yourself shows strength.” — Laozi That’s why I started a YouTube channel at 40. Not because I already had those qualities— But because I wanted to document the journey of pursuing them. To become a better version of myself. And I believe that becoming naturally attracts what we desire. ...

I Quit Sugar for 3 Months — Then Had Two Pieces of Cake For the past three months, I completely cut out refined sugar. No cake. No cookies. No chocolate. No sweet drinks. No hidden sugars in snacks. Nothing. On my birthday, I had two pieces of cake. At first, I felt joy. But then something surprising happened: I felt drained, lazy, and foggy. 🍰 How I Felt After Eating Sugar Again 💤 I Felt Sluggish I usually wake up around 4:30 a.m. without an alarm. But the day after I ate sugar, I felt heavy and lazy. I didn’t get up until after 8:00. That’s when I realized how much my no-sugar routine had been helping me. 😶 I Lost My Motivation I love my morning walks—they’re my favorite part of the day. But after the cake, I had no drive to move. No desire to read, write, or do anything productive. ...

My Journey to the First 100K in Stocks: What I Learned from My Mistakes Reaching my first 100K in the stock market wasn’t a straight path. It was a journey of trial and error, guided by curiosity, humbled by losses, and eventually anchored in timeless wisdom from Warren Buffett and Charlie Munger. 📊 This Is the History This chart shows the slow and steady journey toward my first 100K in the stock market. An overview of the key stages—from blind buying, to trial and error, to value investing rooted in Buffett and Munger’s principles. Three Stages of My Investing Jounery 1. Buy and Hold—Blindly I started by simply buying stocks and holding them, following a guru on Seeking Alpha called buyandhold2012. I bought many of the stocks he recommended, allocating about 5% to each. ...