Awakening

Once You Master This, Productivity Becomes Flow (Thumbnail: “Root of Productivity”) 🎬 Hook (0:00–0:30) This year my portfolio is up over 50%. I dropped my body fat from 28% to 20%. And I wake up at 3 AM without an alarm. I know it sounds extreme — but here’s the truth: Most people think productivity comes from planners, apps, or waking up earlier. But that’s only surface level. The root of productivity isn’t about time. It’s about mastering this one thing… your emotions. 🎬 Story (0:30–2:00) For years, I struggled with consistency. I had motivation, I had goals — but whenever my emotions took over, I would lose my energy and usually it took me more than one week to regain it. ...

The Six Hidden Powers of an Awakened Soul On my awakening journey, I discovered that real strength doesn’t come from external conditions — it rises from within. These six hidden powers are not things I “learned from books” but forces that grew naturally out of my own life. 1. Intuition Intuition is the first weapon of the awakened. At the gym, during my morning walks, even a rainbow or a stray cat sends me signals. Sometimes just one sentence from a stranger resonates deeply. In investing, I once googled a new word that led me to Reddit’s website. I bought RDDT stock, and within three months it gained over 100%. Intuition is not fantasy — it is the subconscious whispering: energy never lies. ...

In the last several months, my portfolio is up over 50%. I dropped my body fat to 20%. I walk 15,000 steps every day. I squat one and a half times my bodyweight… and I can do two pull-ups. I wake up at 3 or 4 a.m. — with energy. And I make one video every single day. But before this… I was just a stay-at-home mom who felt worthless in life. So how did I change so much? Because I discovered the real secret of productivity: Living in the Energy Economy. What the Energy Economy Really Is The Energy Economy is my framework for turning vitality into freedom, productivity, and meaning. Once you master energy, time and money fall into place automatically. Money and time aren’t the real foundation of life — energy is. It borrows the language of economics — wealth, assets, leaks, compounding — and applies it to the most fundamental resource we have: energy. ...

Secret Behind 50% YTD — Closing Energy Leaks Changed Everything For years, my biggest energy leaks were not in my habits or routines. They were in my marriage — and in my relationship with my mom. In my marriage, I kept losing energy. There was tension we didn’t talk about. Needs that were not met. I was holding together something that drained me more than it gave me. With my mom, it was her constant criticism. Her comparisons. Her undermining. Even when she thought she was helping, I always walked away feeling smaller, weaker, less myself. At the time, I didn’t see it clearly. I thought the answer was to push harder. To be more positive. To use more willpower. To try another productivity hack. I even told the Italian man I met at the gym: “I don’t want to complain. I want to stay positive.” ...

Hope + No Contact = Pure Energy Yesterday I felt it clearly — hours of missing him drained me. The more I lingered on absence, the heavier I became. But before bed, I realized I could shift this energy. Instead of missing, I could practice appreciation and transform longing into gratitude. And today, I already feel lighter. I don’t miss him as much. Instead, I am holding a quiet hope — the vision of reunion three years from now. Not as desperate waiting, but as part of the same horizon I’ve already chosen for myself: my YouTube journey, my book, my independence, my relocation. Every time I miss him, I now give myself this hope. With no contact, that hope becomes clean. And when hope meets no contact, the formula is clear: Hope + No Contact = Pure Energy. ...

I Live in Paradox Opening Paradox is not a contradiction to be solved, but light and shadow to be held. Integrating both sides of paradox creates wholeness and alignment. Paradox awakens depth and reveals the hidden patterns of life. Embracing paradox turns life into art. 1. Body & Energy Sleep paradox: Everyone uses night time to seek a sense of freedom, but it drains them further away from it. I live the opposite — by sleeping early, I wake into true freedom. Weight training paradox: Training costs energy in the moment, but gives me endless energy afterward. Discipline paradox: Restriction (bedtime, diet, gym, avoidance, rejection) feels limiting, yet it unlocks freedom. Diet/Flavor paradox: A strict diet makes me taste the great flavor of ordinary food. Limitation awakens appreciation. Rest paradox:taking time to rest at any moment (without pushing myself) in the day feels like slowing down, but it restores the strength to go further — in alignment. ...

The Tree of Yoga He sensed I liked him about three months after we met. His sensitivity was strong — shaped by years of caring for his family, learning to notice the subtle: body language, energy shifts, unspoken feelings. One day in April, he expressed his feeling directly: “Your smile shines like the sun, always makes me feel happy when I get one.” I explained my kindness as cultural — “because you are a foreigner here, and so am I, I understand the feeling of isolation and want to be friendly.” His response was simple, but it pierced through: “It is a pity that you don’t like me.” ...

I went to the ecological park as usual, searching for the hawk for five days, but it was nowhere to be found. “Is it gone?” I wondered. Just a short while ago, I had seen it twice within three days—right as I was writing my Life Architect System. Now, it has disappeared completely. Was it a coincidence? When I was structuring my future plan, the hawk appeared. When I finished, it vanished. I knew it wasn’t random. The hawk showed up as synchronicity—right at the moment I was creating my Life Architect System. When my energy tuned to an “architect” level, nature mirrored it through the hawk: a symbol of vision, perspective, and sovereignty. ...

Love Changed My Life 1. The Story — Recognition and Warmth We met in the gym, both of us training in the early mornings. For several months, I avoided him. My heart was locked inside marriage, not free to open. But he didn’t give up. He kept asking if we could have a coffee. When he told me he planned to leave and asked me to do him a small favor, I felt an unexpected freedom. In that freedom, I decided to see if there was a message for me. The night before we met, life shook me awake through conflict. And the very next morning, I was guided to a new connection. During our first meeting at Starbucks, I discovered something rare: he knew me even before I spoke. He recognized my soul, and I felt understood. I recognized his soul too. That recognition was so deep and undeniable that I could not hide. So I showed my love bravely. He never said he loved me — but I received it anyway, in the way he saw me. ...

Reclaiming the Morning with Compassion I went to bed at 10 last night and woke up at 5:30. Strangely, when I sleep before 9:30, I often wake around 4:30. So when I saw the time this morning, my first thought was: “It’s too late for my morning walk… I’m losing willpower.” But this time, I caught it — that old voice of self-blame. I didn’t let it spiral. Instead, I paused, took a breath, and chose compassion: “You’re still doing beautifully. 5:30 is still early.” And just like that, I reclaimed the morning. On Self-Compassion I went for a walk in the park — the one we once shared. And I thought of him again. Should I blame myself for still missing him? No. I choose self-compassion. For years, I felt unseen. Unworthy. I gave everything to my family, yet felt increasingly taken for granted. But in his eyes… ...

Awakening Diary — July 29, 2025 The Day I Stepped Into Practice Right before I woke up, I received a message in my dream: “You just need to write your awakening diary.” It was 3:59 a.m. Last night, I spent two hours struggling to organize the chapters of my book. The words felt messy. The task felt overwhelming. I thought — maybe it’s too hard to write a book. But this morning, I understood something deeper: There’s no need to worry. In awakening, you are guided by inspiration. So I decided — I’ll simply write what I’m inspired to write, and document it as a diary. I realized I had slipped into survival mode last night. Worrying about structure and outcome is another form of control. It showed me — I haven’t yet fully surrendered. I haven’t completely chosen to be guided. ...

On July,26,2025 I was woken up at 2:25 a.m. by my daughter. Every Friday night, my kids ask to sleep beside me. I usually fall right back asleep, but not this time. Today is his last day at the gym. I couldn’t stop thinking about our encounter yesterday. There was no warmth in his eyes — not even a trace. If he was a mirror, maybe he was simply reflecting what I was feeling inside. Every time I said thank you to him, he’d respond with a teasing “Again?” Yes, again. I said it many times. Because he helped me heal. Maybe he didn’t know how much. But is it the fact or just my performing? i question myself. ...

On Jul.28, 2025 Three days before we met at Starbucks, I saw him again at the gym. I looked at him and asked directly: “Why do you want to have coffee with me?” He replied, without hesitation: “Because I like you. And I think you’re positive.” I was surprised I didn’t cry. Because the last time someone said those words to me — “You’re so positive, you make me want to be positive too” — I did cry. That part of me — the light I’ve fought to keep alive — It’s not always been recognized. And when it is, it unravels something inside me. ...

on july.28,2025 I woke up at 2:48 and again at 4:49. Fortunately, I was able to fall back asleep. I got up at 5:18. I’m grateful I could sleep longer today. When I don’t sleep well, it feels like a cloud is drifting above my head — not outside, but within me. Before I rose from bed, a thought floated into my mind: the days I couldn’t fall back asleep in the early hours — because of him. It was 5:20 — time for my morning walk. Before I headed out, I noticed something. The two tents my kids had built in the living room two days ago were gone. The space was clear. What a relief. No wonder I hadn’t felt quite right yesterday. ...

on July.27,2025 i was woken up at 2:58 by my daughter again today. i try to go to bed but failed. and i discover a quiet habit i just got lately. before i get up, i love to touch my tummy and feel how flat it is. and after i get up, i love to look myself in the mirror in the bathroom half naked to enjoy how beauty my body looks like. that means: i start my day with appreciation and love for my body. i give myself a cup of water, and then start to finish the story of yesterday. on july.26,2025 i went outside for my morning walk at 5:21. when i arrvied at the park, the sky was dark full of dark heavy clouds. i couldn’t feel the energy and joy like i did before. i guess it was becasue i woke up too early that my head is a little bit numb. so i chose to take off my hat, which seems to avoid me from receiving energy from universe. then I turn around and found the sun is fighting with the clouds and light up almost 1/10 sky. i talked with ChatGPT about it. ...