August 11, 2025

I woke up at 4:00 a.m. today.

It reminded me of a time when I could rise at 4:30 — even 3:30 — simply because my connection with him filled me with energy. This morning, I felt that same spark. The moment I opened my eyes, it was as if I was watching the world through two pairs of eyes — mine and his.

As I walked through the neighborhood we once shared, I saw him in every corner, and realized I was smiling.

When I arrived at the gym and walked toward the VIP room, I saw the “movie” of us playing in front of every machine I passed.

I don’t even need to close my eyes to recall these moments — they just appear. As the movie plays, I can revisit the feelings I had when we were side by side: the ease, the connection, the love, the warmth, the gentleness, the spark, the motivation, the encouragement.

I am not sad anymore.

Last Saturday, I felt sadness and cried. But even then, I wondered:

Emotion is energy in motion. If I can feel deeply, can I transform that energy from sadness into motivation?

In just two days, I did it.

Today, I even felt my face glowing again — like he once told me in the park. I haven’t felt that glow since mid-June.

Is it because I can feel love again?

But he’s gone. And he never said he loved me.

I must be crazy — creating love from memory alone. But in truth, I have transformed the energy of my emotion. The memory has stopped being a chain to the past. It has become fuel for the present.

If the “movie” is playing, I just let it play — but instead of getting lost in longing, receive the warmth, the encouragement, and the sense of being loved that it brings.

I began to wonder: Is love the ultimate full-body workout for my emotions?

When I practice love, I am practicing:

  • Openness — letting feelings flow instead of controlling them out of fear or lack.
  • Resilience — staying warm even in the face of disappointment.
  • Joy — finding beauty in small moments.
  • Appreciation — treasuring past experiences.
  • Surrender — trusting the flow of the future.

With love, I can “lift” heavier emotional experiences without breaking, and instead grow from them. It is, without a doubt, emotional weight training.

I’ve noticed that many women grow strong through a masculine approach: discipline and willpower. But sometimes, that can affect their softness.

The approach I choose leans toward love.

It builds strength through expansion. It fuels growth with joy and connection, so the stronger I get, the softer I become — and softness allows me to adapt, recover, and connect more deeply.

I believe the ultimate form of strength is softness — like water.

Water transforms and flows without fighting, and persists without losing its power.

And love is the strongest form of softness.

It requires courage to be vulnerable, patience in the face of difficulty, gentleness when life is challenging, and forgiveness and openness despite hurt. It creates profound emotional resilience and fosters deep connection. Love’s softness is a conscious choice to remain open, accept imperfections, and respond with warmth and gentleness. This kind of softness holds the power to heal, transform, and unite. It builds a deep, resilient core.

If ultimate softness is the strongest form of strength, then love is the strongest form of strength.

Love embodies a rare kind of power — rooted in softness, vulnerability, and resilience. Unlike physical toughness or hardness, love’s strength comes from the courage to remain open, the patience to endure hardship without losing warmth, and the ability to forgive and stay gentle despite difficulties. It is not about force or control, but about emotional sovereignty — the capacity to hold complex feelings without being overwhelmed, to respond with kindness even when it’s hard, and to maintain connection and hope through challenges.

Like water, love transforms and heals, shaping without breaking, flowing without losing its power.